39w5d... its time to get serious

boy oh boy... my boy loves it in there! has anyone told you that you have a crummy uterus? well, my doctor told me i did... but i have little baby laken inside of it who most likely begs a differ.

here is the scoop... 24 hours stands in between me and my due date.

whats up doc? well, my doctor told me on tuesday that i have a crummy uterus that doesn't want to dilate. He asked me to come in on Friday to get an ultrasound, (today - which i did) to see if the baby is weighing too big. He isn't. He is a normal sized bubkens coming in at seven pounds twelve ounces. However with my uterus being a jerk and not wanting to dilate brings into question a cesarian. :( I've went throughout the whole pregnancy with nothing wrong except for swollen feet the past month... now I am faced with the 50% chance of a c-section! KILL ME NOW!! (please don't). They're just worried that if they induce that there is a chance that I will not dilate enough to have my monster baby.

I nearly cried when i was talking to my nurse practitioner today about the possibilities... just because i reminded her how i don't have a partner and it will be difficult. Her, being the sweetheart that she is said.. it will be more of a challenge, but you can get through it and you will. A little reassurance really does help (anyone who is in need!).

My cousin tiffany described birth this way... "Its like you're on a roller-coaster and its going up that first big hill and you want out, but you know you're not going out the way you came." I loved how she put that, but I just didn't know my roller-coaster ride might be a little bit more scary.

Tomorrow I will be in my nikes walking as much as I possibly can. I haven't at all been the impatient pregnant person that is just dying to get their baby out, but if it keeps me from cutting open my skin (which a women who has had a c-section before said... "you can smell the smell of burning flesh when you're cutting you open." NO THANK YOU) then I'll do it!! They already know about my swollen feet, and they don't see it as a problem. Walking buddies anyone??

Since my original plan for Sunday was to give birth to my child and it doesn't seem like that will be the case (being I am scheduled for another drs appointment on tuesday)... I will have to make new Earth Day plans to keep my mind off of it. I have a idea... stay tuned.

But for now... any remedies to start labor?